♥ just a moment ♥

This post suppose to be posted on ytrd
But then I feel not so well and just save it in draft only
A post that I taip at 3.44am
Huh??
Why so late already I not yet sleep then
Cant fall in sleep
Even not feeling well
I keep bear for it
Just finish chat with someone too
……





As my title mentioned
JUST A MOMENT
A happy and peaceful time just in that moment only
It was pass
Should said it was end then
I hope so time can be stopped at that moment
I miss the moment



The moment
When Im in unhappy state
When im in moody condition
When I feel helpness
Once my post on FB
Someone appear immediately too
A “ what happen “
Make me feel spirit suddenly
My mood getting change better after that
Hmm
U keep comfort me
Even I din talk so much
Just stare on it what u tell me
And u just accompany me until the end



Actually
I know u were unhappy too
But u din showed out and even said out
And just keep comfort & accompany me
Even until im off9
U just follow to off it only
……



“ yumiko: why all ppl hv problem just come to find me,ngth den just throw me aside
kent: no yaa,I come on9 and help u
yumiko: why u will on9 suddenly ?
kent: I just on9 see what happened on u only lorr
yumiko: u din on ur hp?so hard to find u then ”
a msg from u
happy ohh
^^
kent: get it?i just on today for u only
yumiko: hmm,okay
kent: den can delete the group(babe dear) on msn that u create?
yumiko: if u want to delete it,I oso cant do anything yaa
kent: no yaa,I din say I want to delete it…if want delete,early I already delete it…not now just only asking u
yumiko: then if I say dun wan delete?
kent: okay okay,then dun want delete lorr…we just put it like that
yumiko: okay ”
(some parts of our chatting)





All the things u just leave for me
U said that on9 just bcoz of me
Thx u accompany me whole nite for ytrd
My mood getting better along the time u accompany me
But I dunno this moment will be going on in future again onot
I really miss this moment badly



For today
10112010
In a moody state too
Feeling tired
I dunno what can I do
I feel helpness at all
Miss u badly right now
Again my tears flow out
I text u then
Accompany from u tonite
I feel calm & warm while chatting with u
The feeling that u accompany me was really nice
And let me feel that u are still be with me at this moment
A secure feeling was out suddenly
Im getting calm & calm
And u just try keep comfort me to let me stop from crying
Again with u tonite





Actually
We still have heart between each other
We still love each other too
But……
bcoz u don’t want to hurt me again
u don’t even want to let me cry always again
u don’t want to let someone keep hurt & disturb me
So that u scare back to the time before
And make a choice to suffer yourself
U know it??
This is suffer for me too
About 4 months pass
I never put down u since we were break
I keep recall back the moment that we together
I even will cry alone every night at here too
But……
I keep ask myself to stop these all
Bcoz it was pass
And u not will back to my side again
Bcoz of someone we cant be together
Bcoz of someone we need to give up each other
Bcoz of someone we need to separate
Say truly
I really cant pass myself
It was hard for me to put down everything in a short time
Mayb need time then
1 day?
10 days?
100 days?
1 year?
2 years?
…………
I don’t know at all
Mayb one of my babe friend are right
“ This is the test for us from GOD ”








We off9 together then
Before going sleep
U tell me that long time din called me babe as well
kent :“ good nite babe ”
sweet & warm then when I heard u say this to me




again i want to say
babe,i miss u much

If we never know each other before
If we not fall in love to each other
If we never meet again
We will not be so suffer now

__babyumiko__