♥ warm ♥

come blogging again now
this few days ngth to do for me
just keep boring at home
sleep
eat
on9
quite boring life actually
but then come back home
it was a warm & nice feeling

miss my daddy
miss my mummy
miss my sis
miss my bro
miss my bed especially
hiak hiak
such a long time din lay on my bed
miss it so muchh
yup
finish missing that all
skip then



next
life for continuously days just keep facing book only
yoyoyooooooo
the time face book again
sleepy loll
so many of words
so many of things need study
so many of things need memorize
so many
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.
.
.
.
.
.
but then no idea
i need to face them all too
no enough time for me to do revision
such a rush time
i very worry for my coming soon final exam
i scare i cant answer that all question
i scare i cant remember what im had study now
i scare my mind will blank at that moment
worry muchh yooOO
hmm
worry and worry
i still need to fight for it
yeappp
i will try my best
bcoz i know someone will support me always




warm to the next
my babe
i received a msg from my babe ytrd
it was around 1am++
but then i din realize my hp hv any msg at that time
i read the msg about 3am++
huhuhu
very warm and nice feeling again when i received the msg
my babe comfort me through msg
he ask me dun thk too muchh
okay okay
babe,i will





actually i feel so sorry to my babe
i cant accompany him when he was unhappy
i cant be his side when he was unhappy
even i dont know at all when he was unhappy
and i still keep disturb him at that moment
but then babe
i really dont know at all
i know i cant help u in anything
thats why u choose dont want tell me
and dont want i worry u much
babe
sorry ohh
i understand all the things right now
i will waiting u here until u settle ur problem
i will support u always too
i not will leaving u too whatever condition
babe
u dont be unhappy anymore ohh
everything will be its own way to solve it
babe
i believe u can do it
just take ur time to do ur things first
i not will disturb u at this moment
i know u need time right now




okay
thats all for my post today
going to bath now and continue my revision




babe lao po love my babe lao gong forever







__babyumiko__

♥ sad ♥

im in bad mood right now
is a super bad bad mood
it wast till the stage that i dont know how to describe already
tired
im really tired
............
why such sadness things keep happen continuously
why??

i hope that i can just lay down now
close my eye ans sleep tight
but i cant do it at all
i force myself to sleep
but
............
i fail to do it in the end
why??


once i close my eye
i will think about that all matters
i will think about all the unhapiness
i will think about you babe



let me talk back to just now
what was happened on you
what was going on actually
can u tell me
im just concern about u
im just care about u
im just worry about you
but then how u answer me
how u reply me
izzit such a way u treat me
u tell me that not need to ask so many coz i cant help u anything
yaA
mayb i really cant help u in many things
but then at least let me know that what had happened on u
let me share with u all the problem
yaA
mayb i cant help u
but at least i can support u
accompany u
im ur gf now
whenever u are not happy
while u are facing some problem
i still will keep be ur side
i not will leave u alone there for vexed
u know that im not happy too if u are not happy
but u still treat me in that way
the way u answer me just will let me feel that im a failure gf
im not ur punching tools
im ur gf
dont be depressed then vent on me
even bad temper on me
u talked fiercely to me again
i know u are not happy
mayb u are vexed for some problems
but u should not vent it on me too yaa

u know since i start together with u
u never talk fiercely to me
u had tell me before that u just will talk with me softly
but then now
something had change as the time going on
it is the way u treat me
it was totally change compare with before
u think carefully urself


i really cant catch ur mind sometime
i dont know what u think for the next second
i dont know when u will change to other people for the next second too
u can tell me what mistake had done by me??
what was happen can cause u change ur attitude
even ur bad temper


u should know it
whether u are happy or sad
no matter what kind of trouble u are facing of
i will always be ur side
i will always support u
i not will leave u alone thr and suffer yourself


i dont want to pass the life without u anymore
i dont want to lost u again
im really cant afford for it
so babe
can we continue our life happily??
can u tell me whenever u are not happy??
i know in such condition
i talk what thing to u
u also not will hear it
just will keep ask me
'' what i want ''
'' anything want to find him ''
i giving u time to calm down
mayb u feel more better after that
we just talk again
babe
i will waiting u here
i believe on you
i have confident on you too





babe lao gong
i miss you
i love u forever


the days we had been together
76 days







__babyumiko__

♥ lolxxx ♥

continue with my 2nd post today
turned back to english post
i more like towards english post for my blog here

yup
look at my title for this post now
LOLXXX
what happened actuallyim getting injured at my hand and leg continuously for three days already
huhh!!!
why???
i also dont know what was going on


1st of allim getting injured at kl home
bcoz of my careless
then kicked to the table angle below there
lolxxx
keep bleeding after that
i quickly take a piece of tissue
and press to the wound hardly
stop bleeding then
but i still feel it pain
but is okay
passed

2nd
it was happened at kl too
when i cleaned up for my room
dont know what happen also then crashed to the thunbtack
my hand's nail (thumb) was split off abit
same condition again
non stop bleeding
feel abit faint after that
luckly it was okay after awhile
but until todayi still not dare to cut off my nails
bcoz it was still in painful condition
while im not cautionly crashed of something again
then it will bleeding again too


3rd
it was happened at my home just now
get injured of my leg again
while im going to drink waterthen broke down a cup
and hurt my leg
bleeding again
lolxxx

what happened actually
why im keep getting of suck kind of injured
izzit im not focus at all while im doing something
may be
orrrr???
just like other people had saidit will be a unluck days during halloween in july
wowww
such a bad luck for me of keep getting injured
even just a small incident
but it was enough for me then
i dont want these all again & continuously
bad bad luck
please go away from me as soon as possible







i still din get any reply or response from you
what happen??
what was going onZ??
babe lao gong
i miss u enough here






okay skip for it
i will be about one week at home
this is the time for me to prepare for my final exam
it will be on 5/9 (Sunday)
it was the last sprint for me also
but badly then
i cant focus for my revision
i keep thinking of my babe
i keep worry about him at here
i just want to know how was him
i just want to know what was happened on him
im really worry him badly
anywhere
i still will keep waiting him here
i will try my best to finish off my revision



end my post today
going to sleep now




miss my babe









__babyumiko__

♥ moody ♥

刚起身没多久哦
但还是觉得很累哒说
可能一整晚都没什么睡吧
起身啦
想了想还是不知道自己想做些什么
终于打开我的笔电
来到了这里
想写下我当下的心情
心情心情??
心情指数 = 零

话说今天我想用华文来博客
也会是一篇你完全看不懂的文章
但我知道你还是有办法看到吧
你的翻译员???
我相信还是有人会帮你翻译




想念你
但我已经不知道自己现在还能说些什么
做些什么
唯一做的是
只能把自己沉浸在文字中
用文字掩饰自己的无错
用文字掩饰自己的心情
更用文字来得到慰籍
这是我唯一能做的事




26/08/2010
也就是昨天
我真的不知道你到底发生了什么事
一整天我都无法联络上你
是你不想接我的电话??
真的有事情发生了??
还是你已经觉得厌烦了??
这些答案
我已经不知道了
答案??
也只有你知道

有时侯真的很难猜测到你在想些什么
我真的很想知道现在的你到底怎么了
你能让我知道吗??
无法联络上你的那一片刻
我真的很焦急
也很担心
我很害怕你有什么事
我知道就算你有事情都不想让我知道
因为你不想我担心
但你也知道这不是我想要的
因为这样只会让我更加担心于你
可是
....................
你始终没给我任何的回复
任何的反应
你到底怎么了???




19/08/2010
这一天
也是两个星期后的一天
你找上我了
而在这一天我也得到了你的答案
你的肯定
而你也说了你爱的人还是我
当时我真的很开心

20/08/2010
这一天
我们都在电话上聊了很久
说出了两个星期前所发生的事情
你也对我说了很多
'' 你问我:你还记得我曾经和你说过的话吗?
只要我们俩开心就好了啊
其他的事都不重要 ''
'' 你说:我不像其他男生一样来伤害你 ''
而我也告诉了你
一切的一切都是因为我害怕失去你
其实那件事情发生之后
我们都担心是否会影响了我们之间的感情
但我们都已经选择了相信彼此
不希望会因为那件事情而有任何的变化
继续开开心心地在一起
这不是好好的吗??


怎么现在
就是昨天
你突然又不理我了
我真的很害怕
我真的很害怕又再次失去了你
虽然你对我说出了那些话
也给我了承诺
但现在我真的搞不清楚状况了
我不知道你什么时候是什么心情
我不知道你是否还记得你对我的承诺
找不到你的那一片刻
我真的都慌了
害怕
不知道该怎么办
伤心
唯有独自一个人哭泣
流泪
而在那时候又有谁能了解我的心情呢
心情再次堕落谷底
心很疼
也很伤心
哭泣还是哭泣
我真的不知道该怎么做了
我需要你陪在我身边
T-T





在这之前
我记得我曾经问你
'' 宝贝老公
我每天这样缠着你
你会不会觉得我很烦呢? ''
而你也回答我说
'' 不会呀,我就是喜欢你这样每天缠着我 ''
当时我笑了笑
很开心有你这样的答复
那时候的你无论再忙
你都会抽出时间来陪我
哪怕是只有在网上陪伴着我
传简讯陪伴着我
但我也觉得足够满意了
因为我知道你得忙于你的工作
就这样你每天都会上线陪伴着我
在我不开心的时候
你会安慰我
哄我开心
在我彷徨的时候
你会鼓励我
当我在爱情失去了信心
是你给予我信心和希望
那时候的我真的觉得很幸福
因为我有个非常疼爱我的宝贝老公

可是现在呢??
究竟我们到底发生了什么事

自从那件事情发生之后
我们都知道我们没有一天过得好
睡得好
甚至以泪洗脸
这我们也都晓得
再加上你的家人知道了那件事情之后
也在为我们的事情而烦恼
其实我很开心因为你的家人都很支持我
而我也得到了他们的认同
更重要的是我们都深爱着对方
但......
昨天到底发生了什么事呢??
我真的不知道




宝贝老公
我真的很想念你
你到底怎么了

不管怎样
我还是会一直在这里等着你


babe lao gong
i love you
i miss you much
i just want to be with you forever





__babyumiko__

♥ just only you ♥

I just want to be with you

Even we are quarrel

Even we are angry for something

Even we had been din find each other for about two weeks

It such suffer for me within these two weeks

But we are still together

I just want to be with you

Even we are busy

Even we are tired

But a warm smile will be there after meet up each other

A better mood will be there too

I just want to be with you

In our love

Just only have each other in heart

No betrayed

No separation anymore

No heartache

No sadness

I just want to be with you

In our love

We will grow along the time

We would become sensible

We will be mature in one day

But sometime we also will be in childish state

I just want to be with you

In our love

We know each other

We are familiar with each other

We are accustomed for each other

We are dependent on each other

I just want to be with you

We will holding each other’s hand until the end

Whatever in happy or sadness state

We will think about of each other

Our love will not drift over time

my babe then
my babe so cute ohh
love his this picture muchh
^^



i just want to be with you
i just want to be with you forever
babe lao gong
72 days we had been together
i cant live without you
i love you
i miss you much here






__babyumiko__

♥ realize ♥

come blogging now
just now have quite a long chat through handset with my babe lao gong
hmm
about one hour ++++ we had been chatted
happy then
my mood getting better timm
^^



i realize that i had already misunderstand my babe lao gong
feel so sorry to him now
yaa
he had about two weeks din find me
without any call
without any sms
this is true
i admit that i really sad at that moment
i really unhappy at all
my mood straight getting down
cant focus in anything
even though also just can act like nothing
then continue making myself in busy state
but it was cant maintain for longer time
i failed up myself at all after that
all is bcoz im really scare that i will lost u already
other then that i oso scare that u really will together back with her
then im really will lost my direction at all
but now i can confirm babe's answer already



i dont know what can i do at that moment
crying
sad
moody
miss babe
these are those things what can i do within two weeks



but
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.
.
.
.
.
just now my babe had explained for me everything
i know im misunderstand him
his heart still hv me start from begining
his feeling was never change until now
actually within these two weeks
babe just wanna both of us have more time to think about it
babe just wanna both of us also in dispassionate state
babe just wanna both of us think that what we really need
at last
babe really understand what i think about
and what i need actually
but i keep cranky at here
babe
thx for u so muchhh



at first
we both oso worried whether our relationship will be effected or not
whether we still can same as previously or not
since such a serious matter had happened
hmmmm
but then
...............................................
after a long talked with babe just now
everything also getting clear already
no more misunderstand between us anymore
no more problem between us anymore
no more disturbance by anyone
i just hope that all the sadness will be end
and we will be happy more than before until forever
babe
we can do it??
yaaa
sure can
we sure can be forever until the end
we will love each other more deeply
we will more understand for each other


gal
you are just the spoiler between us
stop your silly action which is get nothing in the end
we will just continue pass our life enough only





babe lao gong
again i wanna say sorry to you
i dont want lost you anymore
i love you forever






__babyumiko__

♥ finally ♥

hmm

finally you find back me
finally you give me your answer

finally you call me back lao po

suppose for me to happy back

but why i cant do it??

izzit just like other people had said

once the relationship had been affected or something happened

then that relationship will be not so deep like before??

i dont know now

i not sure my feeling now too

still cant happy back

i had said with you that i will forget all the unhappy things just now

but izzit i can do it??
such a serious matter happened
mayb i really too scare i will lost you again

anywhere i wish i can do it and forget all

i dont know why my heart still feel unpeaceful and worried
what happen on me??
but this is the normal symptom
bcoz had been hurt by u
bcoz something happened
really many things had been happened in these two weeks
all is unhappy things for me
all is sadness things for me
i hope these all can pass quickly
totally missing from my mind
i hope nothing will disturb our relationship again
i hope u not will hurt me again
i choose believe on you fully
i choose trust you fully
i hope u know what u do now
everything will be pass
everything will be end
include all unhappy and sadness





a new life start for us
babe lao gong
i love you forever


miss you









__babyumiko__

♥ silence ♥

yeahh
im blogging now
just come back from college
having chemistry quiz today
ohhhh
actually quite easy if really study for it
but i just touch and go on it
so
the answer is????
hiak hiak

bcoz
..................
something happened
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.
.
.
.
.
influence my mood at all
but all the things had been end
a new life start
skip about this









16082010
yesterday
it was chinese valentine days
but i just pass alone myself
i still remember that i will received a box of chocolate
either in foreign or chinese's valentine days
but now
.....................
ngth received in those two days
skip
i not really need it

without you be my side
im really not accustomed at all
i miss you muchhh
i want to say thx to ur family
support and comfort from urs all
im really feel warm and touch
even crying out too
i will continue my life
concern from urs all
i get it
again thx urs all

for u gal
u are lost all the things in the end

i also dont want to talk about this anymore
u should know what u need to do now
not just keep disturb people and ask people to give up this or that
an impossible answer and conclusion
is nothing for you to wait
i not yet get the answer that i wish
but at least i get resonance and confirmation from they all
support and concern from them too
nothing i want to say anymore

skip
.
.
.
.
.
.

i will choose silence from now on
an answer that just only i know
it is a secret
shiiiiiiiiiiiih





final exam coming soon
i should work hard for it more and more
keep my mood start from now
as our anatomy lecturer had said
even though not sleep or what
we also need to SWALLOW all the information
swallow all the things that suppose to memorize
wowwww
is too many then
3 heavy subject in this semester
CHEMISTRY
BIOLOGY
ANATOMY & PHYSIOLOGY
but i will try my best and do for it



yaa
silence
closed myself in one place
i just need a calm and peaceful place

nothing special things happened recently
end my post for today







__babyumiko__

♥ time table ♥

FINAL EXAM

coming soon ohh
exam will be on 5/9/2010 (Sunday)
lolxxx
how come sunday oso nid go to college
somemore is need to go for final exam
haizzz
okay then
go for it



after finishing final on 5th
then will hv a short breaks
about 2 weeks something like this



get to knw the time table today

5/9/2010
Sunday
HDF105 General Anatomy & Physiology (8am-10am)
HDL121 General Biology (10.30am-12.30pm)
HDL101 General Chemistry (2pm-4pm)

OMGGGG
one day exam 3 subject
dieeeee cham cham lorrr
wanna how to die on that day
3 subjects are also heavy subject
a lot of things need to study & memorize
especially anatomy & physiology
izzit time table have problem???

but we need to face it too
just hope everything will going smooth
hope too i can get a better result in this final exam
gambateh yaa






miss my babe lao gong muchh
love u








__babyumiko__

♥ assignment ♥

finally we pass up and finish off our model for assignment today
but our lecturer seem not so satisfy about it
she said that '' why it was so simple ''
lolxxx
we had try our best to do it well then
pass up already then just let it be
what we need is the carry mark for our exam
and we going has a presentation after this
okay fine


as picture shown at above
this is our group's model
but then not yet finish it
coz not enuf for the materials
we stay back at college after class
our group member include
me
my babe raychel
pipi
azwin
yaty
but then coz yaty was getting sick and she cant join us
so that just left we four people to doing our model
we do it till about 4pm like that then we back
it was really tired for ytrd
.
.
.
.
.
.
we continued finish off the remaining part for our model today
then pass up by today too

finally

finish

having mid term for general biology today
hmm
stil okay for me
so far so good
i just write down what i had study and remember before
but then dunno whether it was true onot
hope i can pass lorr
hiak hiak^^
actually if really study it hard and deeply
then can score a better mark
well
i will continue and try all my best in final exam
this is what my bii hope i can do it too




okay
thats all for today
nothing special thing to post then






miss my babe lao gong
love u







__babyumiko__

♥ misunderstanding ♥

coming here now
i need to post an article 1st before i going to bed
but den this post will be a short post only


well
i wanna say sorry to my babe lao gong
hundred sorry to you
thousand sorry to you
nope
.......
i should say an unknw times sorry to you
sorry for tat i misunderstand about you this few day
sorry that i keep said u not bother me
sorry that i keep said u forget what u had promise me
sorry that i keep said u dont want to accompany me
sorry that i keep ask u whether ur heart still hv me onot
sorry that i keep ask u im still ur babe lao po onot
sorry that i really thk many here while u are not beside me
i wanna say sorry to you for all the things



again im crying
while u telling me all the truth
coz i knw i misunderstand u already
coz u are really too tired on ur work
coz u nid to busy for something
coz u nid to help ur family something too
and what i knw is wat u had done all is coz of me
happy that had a happy talk with you just now
we had say out all the things
understand each other more deeply again
i should always believe on you
okay
no more next time
babe lao gong can promise me also??
wont leave me alone again?
wont let me crying here again?
i believe we will be together forever


again
i wanna say sorry to my babe lao gong you


i love you forever
i miss you much too



going to bed now
nitezzz all






__babyumiko__