♥ 24102010 ♥

blogging time again
actually im quite tired
but let me updated my blog here 1st

im mar need to ask myself
how many times i gonna use this picture??
how long i still need to cry??
why im always in moody state??
what happened on me actually??
............
im even dont knw how to answer these all myself too




actually im not so like back to kl
can say totally hate it at all
WHY??
i mar need to face the wall only at here
im alone at here
as u guys know it
i hate lonely life totally
but no idea for it
i need to face the real
bcoz of study
bcoz of my foture
i need to keep persist on it
WHY again??
bcoz
no ppl will accompany me when im in sad
no ppl can share with me too when im in happy
but happy not always come towards me
can said not belong to me at all




continue it
......
another reason why i not like stay at kl
coz of something happened
but it was pass
i cant do it anything again
it really make me sad at all
quite many time it bring back me to the sad condition
keep remind me im choose the wrong choice
keep remind me im too believe someone
keep make me to recall back totally
again & again
im crying bcoz of that matter
again & again
im getting hurt by someone
again
again
again
......
im hate myself why im back to such way
>,<


again im going to someone FB
but i saw something that im not wish to
im stare on it at that moment
i dunno i need to gv out what response for it
just look on it for a few minute
saw it & saw it
my tears flow out
i try to force myself cant cry out bcoz of that matter again
but i cant bear for it
crying T-T
i keep remind myself must forget all the things
cant even think it at all
but i failed to do it to




next
i dunno what happen on u all
why must vent out on me??
not happy den find me
moody den find me too
such a bad attitude on me
talk with me in a bad way too
am i offend u guys??
NOT
i knw u all in a moody state
but den hv u all think about it???
im not in a bad condition too
im not happy too
im in moody too
simply just push all the things towards me
im who???
i really dunno





besides that
im hope can move out from here as soon as possible
i dun wan to face the wall here everyday alone
i dun wan to pass a lonely life again
i dun wan
i dun wan
i dun wan
......
finally we get find our friends to share the rental house
near college too
easy for us go and back from college
i hope the owner can let us move in quickly too
wish it ^^





im need someone accompany me right now
i need it
someone who can bside with me always
someone who can accompany me always
someone who can lend me his shoulder when im crying
someone who can share with me whenever im happy or sad
someone who can be my best audience
someone & someone
the answer is NOBODY



okay
im gonna to stop here
tired
going to bed soon
good nitezz all my babe friends







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