♥ DONT KNOW ♥

again i use this picture for this post
i dunno how many times this picture i had been used
bcoz i need it
i keep ask myself DUN CRY
i keep try control my tears
but
the answer is CANT
i cant even control it
coz im a ppl who easy to cry






whatever i said now
whatever i tell u now
u also not will care more what i had been said about
i really dunno what happen on u
i just know since u tell me that she find back u
im in trepidation condition start from that moment
i feel worried at all
even u tell me that u WONT be back with her anymore
but also coz of her
the problem keep exit
it was NOT settle at all
yaa
u find back me after two weeks
we also thought that everything will be end
and continuous our happy life
but this matter were not so simple that we think
we even dunno what the next step she will do
until this few days
again she come and disturb me
i really dunno what she want
what else i can do at this moment
I REALLY DONT KNOW
which one just is the TRUE??
............
lost my mind
out of idea at all






no matter what i said now
u also not will care again
coz u just will keep said that im thinking too muchh here
and even act like just nothing at all
din hv any call from u
din hv any reply from u
din hv any comfort from u
nothing i get from u after that
izzit u really need do like this
izzit im NOT important to u anymore






lost my mind now
u can just simply let this problem go through
but i CANT
NOT I THINK MORE HERE
but this is true
after this problem appear
u really just let me get disturb from her continuously
again and again
when im telling u
u just will know bad temper on me
u are NOT only NO comfort me
and still said out some words to hurt me
izzit this is what i wish to be happened
NOT
im the victim in this case
but just only me face the problem
even just i suffer alone here
crying alone here
AND U
just like push all the false towards me
im also dunno how to do
den try to find u discuss and slove it
izzit is my fault too??
no comment









85 days we had been together
but a happy time just in a short moment only
problem keep coming
however the problem still exist
how long these all matters just can be END
how long this problem just can be solved
how long i still need disturb by her
WHAT HAPPEN NOW
why suddenly all the things just come towards me
i lost all my confident at all
very suffer for me within this period since the matter happened
even lost myself
why till become in such condition





many friends telling me that
i should give up in this relation
they will said that
'' why ur bf just act nothing at all ''
'' why ur bf can treat u like this ''
'' why he can treat a ppl that he love like such way ''
'' izzit he really love u ''
'' izzit u still important to him ''
'' u both should face and solve together ''
.
.
.
.
.
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many they had reply me for such condition
replies i get more is
'' u should give up and end this relation ''
'' not worthy for u do so much to him ''
but i still choose persist for it
bcoz i still choose believe on you
bcoz i too care about u
the reason is

'' I LOVE YOU MUCHH ''





im wish to get more concern from u
im wish to get more care from u
im wish to know u more
i wish u can accompany me more
im wish u can share all the things with me
im wish we can face and solve together when the problem coming on
............






im looking forward the life before when we are together
i still remember that what u had promise me
i still remember that what u had told me
i still remember that the time u accompany me everyday
even just through on9 or hp
but i still satisfy about it
it prove that u still will care about me
u still have heart on me
BUT NOW
WHAT HAPPEN NOW
u just like change to other person
a person that i never know






im very not happy at all at this moment
im really sad now
im crying now too

BUT I STILL FEEL COMFORT OF IT BCOZ THE SUPPORT FROM UR FAMILY
THX U ALL
LOVE U ALL








__babyumiko__