♥ realize ♥

come blogging now
just now have quite a long chat through handset with my babe lao gong
hmm
about one hour ++++ we had been chatted
happy then
my mood getting better timm
^^



i realize that i had already misunderstand my babe lao gong
feel so sorry to him now
yaa
he had about two weeks din find me
without any call
without any sms
this is true
i admit that i really sad at that moment
i really unhappy at all
my mood straight getting down
cant focus in anything
even though also just can act like nothing
then continue making myself in busy state
but it was cant maintain for longer time
i failed up myself at all after that
all is bcoz im really scare that i will lost u already
other then that i oso scare that u really will together back with her
then im really will lost my direction at all
but now i can confirm babe's answer already



i dont know what can i do at that moment
crying
sad
moody
miss babe
these are those things what can i do within two weeks



but
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.
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just now my babe had explained for me everything
i know im misunderstand him
his heart still hv me start from begining
his feeling was never change until now
actually within these two weeks
babe just wanna both of us have more time to think about it
babe just wanna both of us also in dispassionate state
babe just wanna both of us think that what we really need
at last
babe really understand what i think about
and what i need actually
but i keep cranky at here
babe
thx for u so muchhh



at first
we both oso worried whether our relationship will be effected or not
whether we still can same as previously or not
since such a serious matter had happened
hmmmm
but then
...............................................
after a long talked with babe just now
everything also getting clear already
no more misunderstand between us anymore
no more problem between us anymore
no more disturbance by anyone
i just hope that all the sadness will be end
and we will be happy more than before until forever
babe
we can do it??
yaaa
sure can
we sure can be forever until the end
we will love each other more deeply
we will more understand for each other


gal
you are just the spoiler between us
stop your silly action which is get nothing in the end
we will just continue pass our life enough only





babe lao gong
again i wanna say sorry to you
i dont want lost you anymore
i love you forever






__babyumiko__